Im Just Sayin...

Okay so clearly, it's that time of year again! Wow... Let me try that again. I said, IT'S THAT TIME OF YEAR AGAIN!!!! Hmmmmmmm, still nothing. What's up with that???

I used to get so excited around this time! But look at me now... 3 days before Christmas, and yet to express one wish, for myself that is. Heck I'm not even bothered by the fact that neither of my four parents has asked me what I want yet. But what if they had? What would I say? What do I really want? Clothes? Shoes? A new computer? A car? Well, all of those are nice, but considering how blessed I've been over the years, how dare I "ask" for more?

This year I participated in Toys for Tots. Sunday, my mom, aunt, and I went to the family in which we were sponsoring's house. Upon pulling into the driveway, we all were a bit shocked. We checked twice to make sure we had the right residence, because the house was brand new and twice the size of mine. I thought for sure this was a scam. So we went and rang the doorbell, and then it all made sense. A lady, dressed in shreds of clothing came to the door. When we came in, I counted ten children, all in resemblance of one another, seated quitely on the living room floor. I looked around. There was not one piece of furniture in the house. No television. No refrigerator. No washer or dryer, and from what I could tell, they didn't have many clothes to wash or dry anyway. My heart broke. We had collected about 25 toys, clothes, and shoes for the family, but it didn't seem to be enough. I wanted to give them everything I had, and more. Its not like I ever did anything special to get what I got. I just got blessed with somewhat fortunate parents. They never asked to be poor, just like I never asked to be fortunate, and that could just as well be me.

So all these years I spent, bratting about what I didn't have, I wish I had spent being thankful for what I did have, because I now realize that it is only by the graces of God that I have what I have. I have more than enough clothes and shoes to last me until I grow. So I decided that for Christmas, I want to take the oldest child of the family, Tiana shopping. She's 15, and could really use a nice pair of coach shoes, and maybe even some Forever 21 or Miley Cyrus. Who knows? But what I do know, is that of I make the Christmas of that little girl, it will make my Christmas. So for Christmas, that is all I want. Tis' the season! I finally figured out what Christmas is all about... I'm just sayin...