Im Just Sayin...

Dear Mr. First Love,

Hey, how are you? Been a while huh? I know, we gotta do better. So how's life? Mine, you say? Well, mine is goin pretty okay, just living it day by day. Unfortunately for me, since you left not one day has passed without me thinking of you. Crazy I know, its been years. But for some reason, its still there. Do you ever think of me anymore? Probably not... I see you doing it real big now. College. Gettin a lil big time there I see. Thats cool kidd. I ain't mad at ya. Just make sure you dont get caught up, and lose sight of the main goal of college. I really want you to do well. Oh, and in case you're wondering, yes, I am still your biggest fan. And I will always be in your corner, with my "Go ******" sign. Yea I know you like that. But listen, there's something else I gotta tell you. I know you got girls, and I even got a man, but I can't make myself love him and not you. You were the first guy to find that special place in my heart. But why won't you leave? Don't you want someone else to have it? I mean, you dont even use it? Are you saving it for something? I just wanna know. Because I'd like someone else to have it, if you don't want it.
Anyway, I said all that to say, I love you... Still. And I may get called crazy, stupid, dumb, or obsessed by others reading this, or even you, but I don't care. Thats how I feel. Thats how I've always felt. And I just thought it was about time you knew... I'm just sayin...

~E